Today I felt inspired

John Bland
Jessica Bland
J Bland
Dr Bland

I want to cultivate my personality to be as warm, embracing, curious, accepting, joyous, passionate and humorous as Grandad's. His unbelievable professional accomplishments are staggering to me.

Feeling alone
Feeling selfish

I turn it around with donating blood, giving the units I might come across in the OR. Then I'd be helping the patient in more ways than one. Giving away what you want to get in life. If you want a fulfilling life, give away more of your own. It doesn't make much sense.. and yet it works.


Conquering Fears
Electricity
Large needles
Cold

I didn't want to open up the thermostat, shorted out by my own static electricity... for fear of not being able to put it back together, fear of being cold when the furnace won't turn on again. But it did. And that is good.

Donating blood has never been a straightforward process.. it takes 20 minutes, and that is technically over the limit of what it should take.. and I get all "vagal" and sweat and faint and it's scary... and it never goes fast enough so they jiggle the needle in my arm. I asked once what the gauge was.. and the nurse replied, "Do you really want to know?" Well now that I know the gauges more intimately.. I looked down when the gauze had slipped off.. and well.. that's enough... I made it today.. No fainting.. They tell me that the blood will be used.... And those things are good.